012- Allow The Quiet To Run Over You
Monday Updates: Spine injury and a delay in projects
Diary excerpt from last week:
Oct 1
I am determined to finish the rocks over the next two days.
-So it will be the rocksÂ
2 more days
-The vegetationÂ
1 day ideally, two tops
-Touch-ups
1 day
-Applying the coverage for the gold, adding coverage to the main grotto
2 days
God, even with this is all one week more. I wish I had an extra person. Oh how I wish I had an extra person to help. One more week….one more week….If I focus completely.
The next morning after writing this diary entry, around 3:00 AM, I woke up in agonizing pain. In my twisted, half-awake stupor, I somehow lulled myself back to sleep. But the next morning I couldn’t turn my head, and I couldn’t lift my arms and barely walk. I don’t even remember how I got out of bed.
After two months of painting, my body finally gave me an apparent signal that it was being pushed too much, basically screaming at me to stop. Despite the determination to finish the work, the painting will be at a standstill. My body has other plans for me.
After one week of rehabilitation, I still can’t walk too much and still struggle to wash my hair without pain. I’ve been on steroids and muscle relaxers, and I am hoping that I will be able to feel a bit less pressure on my neck and spine over the next few days.
Despite it all, my heart is still light. I am on the mend and so grateful to my friends who picked up the phone while I couldn’t get off my back.
I have had a considerable amount of time to think, despite still attempting to nurse myself with social media and less fruitful forms of entertainment. I must allow the quiet to run over me. With the eruptions of fear and pain, there is always an opportunity for introspection, and negative emotions should not only be accepted but welcomed. They are there for a reason.
This week I am slow, my projects are delayed, my dedications must wait, but I am here and allowing beautiful things into my mind, including a documentary about Gene Wilder’s life, a huge recommendation.
Neck willing, I will have a more substantial piece for you next week. Sending all my friends on here all my affection and love.
FIND ME ON
Monday Updates is a section of this blog where I’m letting my hair down, figuratively. I am often preoccupied with getting things perfect, rather than simply sharing and enjoying the process and talking about life. Instead of the tradition of hating Mondays, I’m going to try to associate them with creative freedom and allow myself to speak my mind without the worry that a perfectionist usually has. Things here may be a bit disjointed, incomplete, and occasionally nonsensical, but they may also be playful, curious, and whimsical. I will do my best to make it more of the latter.
Wishing you a speedy recovery! I hope you feel that quiet running over you and it gives you new energy, new life!
Reylia! Sincere condolences for your incapacity and pain. Thankfully, you seem to recognize that your body has other plans for you at this time - like rest, recuperation, taking a real pause for the sake of your wellbeing! This slow-down call is a wake-up call. I hope you take ALL the time that you need to properly recover. Top priorityl.